Today, I did pretty well with my fitness, not so good with my eating.  I ran/ walked almost 4 miles. I need to take time and come up with a food plan and buy healthy options, unfortunately my pockets are low so I will have to contact cal fresh and see what I can do about getting services to aid me.

I feel a little better emotionally, but I think I just need to be silent and really need to find out who I am and where I want to be.

I am tired of feeling sad. really sad, i feel horrible like i'm just waiting to dying as the world closes in on me... shits not fun.