I feel i am in the right place at the right time, I am secure in knowing i cant be the perfect person I envision in my head cuz im building up to that. everyone come into their own at just the right moment in life and mine is coming. so what am i looking to do?
well....
1. Lose weight not for anyone, but for me, I want to reach a size that I am comfortable at, that i feel naked in that I can shop of the rack, buying that LBD for any occasion and not struggling or finding something that just fits, with tears in my eyes by the end of the night.
2. Build my career and looking past the incidences of self-consciousness, where I don't think I'm good enough to be a leading voice in the writing community and making a difference in the field of sex and sexuality that fits for me and my lifestyle.
and Lastly...
3. Find my counter part, a partner to walk this path with me who is willing to build more than a family but a legacy something we can leave behind that our family will endure and live on forever.
So these are my three major goals in no particular order, but I will work to create a life for myself that will make me HAPPY!!
I so totally commend you on these goals S! It's funny how you used the word content because Ive been thinking in these last few days about how I USED to feel content, but now I don't anymore. Getting to even THAT point was a major accomplishment for me and for the possibility of sounding dumb, I was content with just being content! These days though, I'm not only missing being 'content with who I am', I'm also feeling like I want something more - something called happiness! As I was reading your blog, it just reminded me though that before we - I - can be happy with someone else, I need to find a place of happiness within myself and that's my ongoing journey starting this year. I'm sure we'll see each other on that road to the promised land! Keep writing and logging your thoughts cuz' I'm right here with ya'!
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